|I'm on the right. One of my all-time favourite photos,|
taken backstage at my last show.
The three of us in this photo had danced together for all of my 11 years.
I love it to death. Dance became my life. I struggled through my high school years, and nights spent at the studio somehow made everything better. I suck with words, and the movement became a way to express myself freely.
I went to a small studio in the next town over. It's a place where you can come and dance and be accepted, regardless of whether you fit the dancer mould or not. I never have, and never will, fit that mould. Yet I always felt like I belonged there. Hell, I missed my senior PROM for my recital!
I had some great roles over the years. In my first recital, I was Charlie Chaplin (moustache and all). I played a crow in The Wizard of Oz, a candlestick in Beauty and the Beast, a Lost Boy in Peter Pan, among many other miscellaneous parts. My biggest role was Drosselmeier in The Nutcracker. I was always stronger at my jumps than my turns, and managed to consistantly score typically male roles, not that I ever would have traded them for anything.
One of my most treasured memories is my last dance: the Finale in a show we called rTunes (our spoof on an iTunes playlist). The song was "I'm Still Standing" by Elton John. I was front and centre. I had never felt as important as I did in that moment. Four of us graduated that year. Three of us had been dancing together for all of my 11 years. I was last to get my flowers (thanks for that, alphabetical order).
|My dance teacher and I hugging as I received my graduation flowers.|
Since May 2010, I have missed dancing with a passion. I still dance recreationally, but it has never been the same. However, dance is something that I will never give up.
This weekend is my old studios annual recital, called "Get Inspired". Tomorrow, I get to go watch my cousin step onto the stage one last time, and receive her flowers. And I will likely cry just as much as I did when that was me. Maybe more.
Much love, Samantha